Sunday, May 23, 2010
I am a devoted follower of Thalia even if I don't make a lot of comment posts. I find her brilliant and warm and absolutely honest about her infertility trials and tribulations and successes. She gives me hope, even if I've pretty much lost it now. It's like Meg Ryan says in You've Got Mail..."there is the dream of someone". I am now at that stage...all roads have failed, I would adopt in a heartbeat if my husband would even suggest he wanted to, instead of walking out of the room the minute I bring it up, I dream of a child someday with desperate longing and despair. Much has happened in the last year...many disappointments, IVF appointments, miscarriages, and I just haven't been able to write about it. But the other day I was at Thalia's website and saw a badge of honor...I finally made her list of blogs to check out. So I guess that it's time I get back on the horse and tell my story of the past year. Work is hectic this coming week, end of the year wrap up and reports, but after this week, I will come back and I will start to tell the tale..the good, the bad, and even among the shattered hopes and dreams, I still yearn for a child in my future even if deep inside I know that I will never be a winner.